On Becoming "Mom"
"With great power comes great responsibility" – okay, so I may not be Spider Man…but being a parent is as close to a superhero as it gets in the real world, right?! At least, that’s what I thought when I was a kid.
Up until now, I’ve known how to be a child, and an adult. But, a parent? That’s for my mom and dad, and other moms and dads. But I am about a month away from becoming a mom. Don’t get me wrong, I am excited above everything else, and absolutely can’t wait to go on this new journey with Alex. We will learn together what it’s like to become parents: all the highs and the lows, the infamous newborn-induced-zombie-like-states, and growing into our own rhythm as a little family. But it feels like such a daunting task.
I’ve found that through my pregnancy, and getting prepared to become parents for the first time, I have been connecting more with my mom, my sister, and sister-in-law (who are also both pregnant!), mothers within my community, and most importantly, Jesus. At this time, community feels so much more important than it has at any other time in my life.
While it is both exciting and slightly terrifying that Alex and I will suddenly be fully responsible for this fragile little girl, I find peace in God. Whenever I feel uneasy about the (somewhat overwhelming) realization that, within a month, I’ll be responsible for this little girl, and also have to endure labour, I find complete peace in Christ. Knowing that he is always there to listen and guide us, and that no matter what happens we always have him to turn to.
Above all the anxiety, worries, and uncertainties that come along with pregnancy and parenting, I am absolutely ecstatic to meet our daughter and go on this insanely exciting journey with Alex as we figure out what being a parent is all about.
In a month or so, I will become a dad.
The idea of being a dad is beyond words. Regardless of the cliché lines, "Say goodbye to your social life!" or "Get plenty of sleep now because soon you'll be wishing you could!” - this is one of the most exciting times of my life.
The past 8 months have been a journey of excitement, preparation, and most of all, waiting patiently. At first, 9 months seemed like this never-ending journey, (especially for my wife!) and the idea that she was pregnant really didn't sink in.
That was until our first ultra sound. Seeing our baby in high definition black and white video finally made it sink in, "Yep, okay, there is a baby in there!"
Next was our gender reveal party. Torry and I stood before both of our families and with much anticipation revealed a collection of pink balloons. We're having a baby girl!
Since then, my mind has been racing with all sorts of questions as well as ideas on how I can be the best dad possible. I can remember being a kid: going to school, making friends, and figuring out my journey of faith. Now I get the honour of loving this little girl unconditionally and steering my daughter in all those choices of life.
I am overjoyed to be able to teach our daughter basic life lessons, and most of all, sit down and watch classic movies together. Now as excited as I am, there are just a few questions that run through my mind: Will I ever sleep again? How many diapers will I have to clean? Will we ever have free time?
Sometimes I feel unqualified for the task of fatherhood, but no matter what, I am ready to figure it out. The responsibility and uncertainty of becoming a dad also encourages me to stay focused in my faith and trust in Jesus. I want to share the same grace that I’ve experienced, and remind our daughter daily of God’s unconditional love.